let it out.

since the day my grandpa ross died, there hasn't been a day the same. there hasn't been a day i haven't thought of a part of my day he would have enjoyed, something i would have told him, missed him, and remembered him. 
i'm really good at putting on a smile when i'm hurting the most so that i don't have to actually talk about it. luckily, i am able to tell this girl what i need to. she was pretty fond of him as well :) 


sometimes i forget how lucky i was to even know him. i was reading this and cried for my cousins and soon to be cousins that won't get the moments with him that i did. 
but, at the same time, i wasn't the only one who came to appreciate all that he was. there was many others who saw what i saw. 


coming to terms with how permanent death is SUCKS. but that doesn't mean i can't still admire him. 


this weekend i get to travel down to st. george with raleigh and erin and get to see my grandma. i'm soo excited! i've missed her so much. she's amazing and crazy strong. i'll also get to see my great grandma terry who soon will get to be with grandpa ross and great- grandpa terry. ♥

staybeautiful.